Monday, September 10, 2012

One sided good friends

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Harapnya semua readers dalam keadaan baik-baik sahaja.
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"When you know the feeling is not mutual. Just accept the faith and it's the time to back down."

“Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.” 
Albert Camus

Having a good friend is the best thing happened in one's life but not every people could find it. As for me I may have found the term yet I’m not pretty sure either it's a good one or not. 

In my life at UPSI I've learnt many things and knowing a friend is the best part of it. Among all these friends there are several persons who are ranked above others and him is one of them. 

At first we are not so close enough since I'm neither too bright nor too outspoken to begin with. We've meet as a rival in Debate Competition and his team won the competition. (Seriously not too impressed but it was his luck I think and his final performance is quite good)

Then we start to involve in club and meet several times yet still not too close. "Debat Perpaduan" where I really start to know this person. (Quite enough to be called as friend)

Time passed and we've grown closer. With several others friend we've make a bond like brothers. Experiencing life together, sharing up and down moments just like a real brothers. (Wish this brotherhood never end)

Knowing him as a friend and as a teammate is two different things. As a teammate he teaches me to trust others and to be cool. As a friend he has shown me the qualities in every person. (Don't judge a book by looking to its cover)

Friend forever after. I've wish I could say that but seriously this is neither fantasy nor just simply animation film, it's a real life dude. Not everything goes according to plan.

Holidays are the best seasons for every student. We've got 4 month holiday's breaks and it was a blast but for me I've just manage to get 1 month ++ breaks and he probably manage to get 2 month++ breaks.

Managing life during holiday is quite a mess. Not having things to do is quite awkward since in University there are a lot of works to do. Then, I’ve decide to text a few friends that I’ve in mind.

Then, I’ve text this person who I thought is a good friend of mine. Guess what? He never replied. Being positive he may have a lot of work to do. Then, I got this news from another friend that he has been texting with.

It’s not like I’m hoping for him to text me every day or what. Furthermore, we’ve just friends. At least a simply “Hi!” rarely would be enough so that I’ve known he still alive.  

One morning, I realize this is not the first time either and all this time, most of the news about him I’ve known from others. Then, this question keeps popping out in my mind “Is it I’m the only one who thinks him as a good friend?” (Maybe I’m just a person when needed.)

One sided good friend, probably this is what it’s all about. Made up my mind and keeping busy all this holidays seasons hoping to erase this thought. (Or maybe to erase him from the list)

Holidays coming to an end and do want to believe that he is no longer yet…

Seeing him is a pain but knowing my effort is a waste is much more painful.  What will happen?  Is the one sided good friend story will keep continue or it will be no more let the CREATOR decide it.

P/s: “What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies.” 

On top of that I 'm still hoping that he have a great life (i must be crazy..) (-_-")..


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