Lucky..

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes

Waiting for a love like this

Every time we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

This the lyrics LUCKY song from Jason mraz and colbie caillat

Entri kali ini dalam bahasa melayu..

Sedang aku mengemaskini lagu dalam laptop tiba-tiba terjumpa lagu ni..  Boleh lah tahan juga lagu ni. Tapi entri kali ni bukan la pasal nak kritik lagu ke apa. cumanya lagu ni ingatkan aku dengan citer lama dalam bab kehidupan ku. Kalu sape2 yang pernah baca entri pasal UP1 or yang bertag aku n DIA dalam blog ni mungkin sedikit-sebanyak dapat faham citer kali ni..

Zaman sekolah menegah, zaman yang bayak membentuk diriku. Dalam banyak-banyak kawan perempuan kat sekolah tu ada seoarang yang boleh la dikatakan kawan rapat.  Kawan-kawan gak tapi tak tahu kenapa aku suka bila berborak dengan dia. Suka tengok dia senyum. Tapi dia ni hebat bahasa inggeris. Memang sape nak tackle dia kena ade mulut mat salleh.

Nak jadi cerita aku penah gaduh dengan die. Sampai tak cakap. Korang tahu tak time tu sebelum cuti akhir tahun sekolah aku gunakan duit aku beli telefon bimbit sebab aku takut tak dapat hubungi dia nanti. Tu telefon pertama yang aku beli guna duit sendiri. Semata-mata sebab nanti time cuti tu nak mintak maaf.

Sebenarnya, aku ada mimpi . Time tu masih gaduh lagi. Aku mimpi aku tak dapat jumpa dia la. Lebih kurang macam tu la synopsis mimpi aku tu. Tu yang usaha pegi beli telefon tu.. Hahaha. ( dalam hati : romantiknya aku..hahaha). Aku ni susah kalau nak cakap depan-depan tapi kalau dalam mesej cepat je macam highway. Jasa telefon bimbit tu kitorang dah tak gaduh dah.

Faedah : dapat la aku hubungi dia masa cuti.

Keburukan : Duit aku habis kat top4. (time tu kan masih sekolah.. mana ada duit banyak)

Hubugan kitowang statik.. Jadi kawan je. Dalam masa aku jadi kawan tu adalah budak-budak batch kitowang yang gosipkan kitowang.. Aku malu-malu kucing ja. Dalam hati apa salahnya..hahahaha(muka selamber). Tapi aku tahu juga dia “ in relation” tapi tahu la sejauh mana .  Susah la nak tackle pompuan outstanding kat sekolah. Semua orang kenal. Probability untuk aku tu mungkin kena ambil nombor dulu la jawabnye. Tapi tak pe. Kawan pun kawan la yang penting  boleh juga rapat dengan dia..(ala-ala redha)

Ader time tu aku dapat tahu dia break dengan pakwe dia.  Pakwe dia pula kawan aku. Adush.. macam mana la aku tak boleh tahu pasal ni. Aku ader la mesej-mesej dia time tu. Sampailah ada satu tahap tu aku confess gak kat dia. Esok ari tu satu sekolah tahu aku confess kat dia… segan tahap hyper r..  jalan pun tunduk. Hahaha..

Tapi tulah… Tak ada rezeki… Aku ada buat silap and I admit I’m not too good for her and for her to accepted me at the first place had make me grateful enough. Kerana bukan semua kawan boleh jadi hubungan macam tu. .. hahaha… Once in a million I tell you.. and if YOU read this.. knowing you is not a regret in mylife.. be friend with you is the most precious thing I ever have.. to love you is the gift from this life….

P/s: Sorry la kalau entri kali ni agak bold..hhuhuhu 

The UnTold stOry...

Ambition, goal … the thing make we work our butt off to achieve it… the entry that I wanna share is the story of a boy that I knew..  The boy who would do anything to get his goal achieves it including hurting persons that close to him… such a self-centered person... That is what I use to call him… but there is something that turns the perception that he believe…

He has seen so many betrayals in his life. But the betrayal of his trusted friend, the person that he thinks he could rely on does leave a great mark in his heart. The scar that he wouldn’t able to erase. After the incident he has change. He starts to not believe everyone around him. Sometime he thinks all the people are the enemies of his.

One by one the person close to him was hurt by his act. He begins to continue his long life journey alone carrying all the past pain as the guidance. Every day he wishes to become stronger than anyone to achieve his goal to be on top of the world. So everyone will never hurting him anymore. So everyone will recognize him. That is what he assuming but he never knew what the future store for him.

Day after day he takes a step after another until he realizes he is getting lonely. There is no one to share his achievement. There is no one to say “well done! You’ve been great”. Everything he achieves does not enough for them. He getting lost in his world he believes. Run away from the real world. Hatred within him grew stronger by the end of the day.

He knew he had to do something. That is the he realize he need power to be on the top. He starting to manipulate, using peoples around him heartlessly until he get the power. He does not care how many hearts that he will break.  But it is still no good. There is no limitation when it is come to power. You get one and there will be another higher power.  There is still no satisfaction ….

But this is just part 1 of the story…

~to be continue~